Shadow Exploring consciousness becomes a very important part of my day, but never an obsession. I will try to understand messages behind every possible contact from which consciousness speaks. My paintings will give me wonderful insight into my inner state, and Jungian interpretation will act like a translator in this process. Sometimes chaotic painting will emerge, and sometimes clean and precise — it will be easy to distinguish style, but the way in which painting speaks will change, and this changing will happen in intervals. There will be a lot of paintings in one speaking voice, then it will become another, stay consistent for one period, then come back to the old one. This particular one was chaotic. Snake Hiding Behind Purple Shadow I would like just to mention one small thing in this painting: the line in the middle, which goes till the circle (circle which in Jungian terms means self), is colored with green but in a way which resembles snake skin (can be interpreted like shado...
Time will tell
My trip to Italy was very rough. Reading my book, which I imagine is published by the time you are reading this, you will surely get more information about the full process and everything that happened and how this experience shaped some opinions that I will carry with me. Or, if you, for some weird reason, come across this blog now, you will need to wait. By pure coincidence, I got registered in a school of Photography in Rome, which opened something in me that I never knew I had—this love for photography and the moment-capturing process. 'There is no bad photography; they are all special and will never happen again.' Falling in love with photography may have been influenced by the professor who was teaching there, but maybe this was something I was always meant to do, and finding this was a relief. All my life, I was writing, and this is something that was part of my life from when I was six years old. Writing was with me in the craziest days of my teenage years, where I was writing rap songs or stories and trying to write a book, all in my mother language. Why am I telling you this? Because the feeling I got when I discovered photography was the same love I had for writing, and this happened.
You can easily imagine this—I just found myself in Rome, in my old pair of shoes in which I came to Italy. Now, this same pair of shoes is in my bedroom, hung on the wall to remind me where I came from and to never change my deep beliefs. I was in search of work that would sustain me there and give me a chance to have enough money to live in Italy. There wasn’t much support from my family—20 euros? Will it change something? Yes, you can eat something, but there were times when I didn’t eat so well; let’s put it that way. And on top of it all, I was dealing with other problems, which won’t be deeply explained here.
Sometimes, just to escape from all this and stop thinking, I would go to this school. Just like playing World of Warcraft was my escape from problems, photography started to become the same thing. I was moving a lot: Torvaianica, Trastevere, Termini. I bought my first camera, a Sony Alpha 290, which was needed for school. In this text, I’ve presented some photographs that were taken at Termini Station in Rome when the sky was full of birds. I was walking, capturing moments and my feelings, which I can access anytime I look at these photos.
Let yourself to dream, let fly when you don't have wings; time will tell if it was worth it or not.
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